When the chips are down, sometimes your best option is to take a deep breath and maybe spend a little extra time smiling. To that end, I’m trying to give myself a break today and not take myself too seriously…
Early this morning I went to the car wash, thinking that I would baby my car just a teensy bit… I haven’t washed it one single time since I bought it last March – I have issues about justifiying the wasting of perfectly good water just to have a clean car. It seemed like a very small splurge and now I’ll be able to see the road at night because there isn’t a thick brown film of dirt on the headlamps.
ANYWAY, this newly clean car looks so different, I have walked past it TWO times already today. It’s only 1:45pm! Part of it is the car is now a different color (all clean like that), but the other part is that I am just plain addled today. I stopped at lunchtime to get fuel in my sparkly-clean car and when I drove off, I left the gas cap laying on the trunk. Lucky for me that I drive so slowly in the parking lot, because when I got to Target it was still there.
Then, walking through Target buying groceries to take out to the country house tonight, I kept dropping things and knocking things over! Now, you may not know this about me, but I don’t do stuff like that. Ever. I’m a clutz when it comes to walking, sure, but I don’t drop stuff or knock over random things like some ox let loose in a china shop. Seriously, the yogurt, the tofu, the cart of neatly stacked lemons… nothing was safe because I was a walking, talking disaster area with boobs!
To add insult to injury, I thought I lost my sunglasses. Only after I had emptied out the ENTIRE contents of my bag did I find those suckers. That’s another thing I don’t do ever – lose my stuff or forget where I’ve put things.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this – likely nowhere, which is absolutely in keeping with this spazzed-out state of mind I’m in today.
*** Mom, you were right. I do need to meditate, if only to disspiate this nervous energy and get my head in check! And I plan to start tomorrow morning with the sunrise.
