Last night, I prayed. I am not at all religious, though I am deeply spiritual. And yet, this is something I do not do often. But last night, I prayed.
I prayed to the Universe, asking for my writing muse to come back. I asked the Universe to help me to find that voice who speaks [...]
Archive for August, 2008
I Prayed.
Posted in Things to Ponder on August 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Existential
Posted in Various and Sundry on August 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
This is just going to be one of those very existential times in my life, I think. Where I wonder just who in the hell I am and where I’m going and what paths I want to take to get me there.
It’s a time of worry, yet also of anticipation – as I slough outer [...]
The Naptime Dream
Posted in Things to Ponder on August 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday afternoon, I dozed off while watching some nameless movie. Must’ve been a good one, right?
Anyway, I dreamed about someone I haven’t in quite some time and to be honest, it made me less sure of myself about this whole job-change business than I was to begin with. It all seemed so real, right down [...]
Badass
Posted in Farmgirl on August 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
At the risk of sounding cocky, I’m a badass. I mean, seriously, I am. Because as we speak, I’m brewing my own wine. Out of beets, no less. How is that not completely taking advantage of using up all the stuff people normally throw out?
Apparently my grandmother used to make this stuff out of beets [...]
Withdrawing
Posted in Things to Ponder on August 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The more dissatisfied I have become with this job, the more I have withdrawn from this place and most of the people in it. It isn’t their fault, it’s just my way of dealing with leaving people I really like (with just a few exceptions). I have emotional control issues, and distancing myself from people [...]
Something About Leaving
Posted in Things to Ponder on August 21, 2008 | 1 Comment »
There is something about leaving, a tightness of regret I can feel in my chest, that lingers there no matter how relieved I am to be moving forward to someplace else. A flick of fondness for old things, remembrances of good times and inside jokes, causes my eyes to sting. I will miss so many things, all the while [...]
More Sundried Tomatoes and Corn!
Posted in Farmgirl on August 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My daughter’s boyfriend brought us about 50 ears of corn Monday, which I postponed shucking until last night. Big mistake, because last night I HAD to shuck the corn so it didn’t go bad, and honestly, I wasn’t really in the mood to do it. Funny thing about putting your own food up for winter… [...]
Second Guessing
Posted in Things to Ponder on August 18, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I do this a lot, apparently I wasn’t born with that “peace of mind, knowing I’m doing the right thing” gene. And so, it will come as small surprise that I have been mulling and pondering my decision to leave my current department to move to another. Which is silly, since I’ve been DONE with [...]
Raindrops Keep Fallin On My Head
Posted in Various and Sundry on August 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
And that’s a good thing, here in such a semi-arid climate, but does it have to be so darned COLD, too?? My house was a chilly 48 degrees when I woke up this morning since I opened up all the windows last night after a nice 80 degree day. Crazy weather.
Regardless, I’m glad to be [...]
The Only Way Off the Ride
Posted in Gratitude on August 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
…is to just get off it. Some wise fellow blogger wrote that awhile back and danged if I can remember who. Whoever you are, THANK YOU, because it has changed my life. I AM getting off this particular ride and if the new ride doesn’t work well for me, I already have my next plan [...]
